Pandora Hearts, ruining my life since 2009.

                                  

In every books that I read, I always find one character that stand out the most than the other. In my case when I read Pandora Hearts, that character was Xerxes Break.
When I bought the first volume of this manga in 2009, I never thought that the story will go on for this long OR I will be following this series for this long. The first time I read it, I don't quite understand what the story about, and the ending of the first volume didn't help either. I drop it after the first time I read it.
At the same time in 2009, I went to school that far from my hometown and the only comic book that I brought was Pandora Hearts (well.. I bought it there.. sooo). Sometimes when I'm bored, I keep re-reading that manga over and over again until one day, somehow, I start understand and like the story. I start to read it online, because there's like already 9+ volume online and there's only 1 volume that's been released in here (god what is wrong with indonesia). So basically ever since that day, I start to follow Pandora Hearts series. And.. uuhh.. 2009 was a pretty rough year for me and That damn manga was pretty much my only mood booster that time.

Now the thing that makes me want to write this post was because of that character that I used (or still? well actually still) love so much, Break, died... recently.. like a month ago. I was sad (duuh) and it's kind of annoyed me when people was all like
                  "Oh but he's just a fictional character"
Well okay! He is a fictional character and i'm fully aware of that. But I've been reading Pandora Hearts since 2009. I've been reading this comic book for 5 FREAKIN YEARS. I've been reading this manga, waiting for its new chapter every month for the past 5 years, follow each characters stories, and hell I can't think of it as JUST a story. I read this book since the first year of junior high, I grew up with this story and its characters. Some of the characters in this manga inspired me a lot.

When you like a story, want it or not, you are going to feel something for its characters. You will hate a character, you will love a character, care, and sometimes you can relates to a character.

For me, this manga is like.. how do I explain this.. in a weird way, this story that this book tell me is like a friend telling me about their day. You feel happy when they tell you happy story and sad when they have problem. (CALL ME WEIRD ALL YOU WANT I KNOW I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT FEEL THIS WAY-_-)

I like Break since 2009, I read his stories for 5 years, and I can't help to care about this character. Break is the character that stand out the most for me, so it hit me pretty hard when he died. Especially when his last word in the book was "I don't want to die". Even though some people told me he just a fictional character and not real, I will say that I did grieve his death. I'm sad, I cry once, but I'm okay now.

Despite what I just write, it is not okay to be TOO depressed, about fictional characters. I just read an article about a teenager commit suicide over fictional character's death.. and.. that is just not okay. Heck not just fictional character, even being too depressed over real people death is not okay. In the end all living creatures will die, that's just natural. It's okay to cry over the death of your loved one, your pet, even those characters that you care so much. Cry as much as you want because it will make you feel a lot better. But sooner or later, you will have to moved on because life goes on. You don't have to forget, but don't make this person's death a bad memories that you will ever remember/feel about them. Remember them, cherish the memories you have with them, move on. That's just my opinion. (Whoa, how did i end up talking about something like this._.)

Wow, this is pretty long post hahaha. Damn, Jun Mochizuki is one hell of a writer to make me care this much about this characters. Pfft I don't even care if anyone think i'm a weirdo after this post.

Rip Break.